I SURVIVED THE INTERVIEW MORE UNDER THE CUT
okay two of the main issues with this PHONE INTERVIEW were
1.) BAD PHONE CONNECTION ARRRRRRGH
2.) this woman talked FAST. i am a part-irish woman living on the east coast so when i say someone talked fast it was like WARP SPEED. holy pants-shitting FUCK
also i fucking bared my soul to this woman she was like “why do you wanna work for us :)” and i was like IF I DO NOT DO SERVICE I MUST COMMIT RITUAL SEPPUKU and like obviously that is a mild exaggeration but. um. only a mild exaggeration. i mean i kept it cool but like.
basically everything i said just screamed “tightly wound overachiever” and like i AM but i don’t know how well that’s going to READ and like as the words were coming out of my mouth i was like OH GOD IM FUCKING UP IM FUCKING EVERYTHING UP
i am still about 90% adrenaline also i will hear back from ms. lady within a week so it is inevitable by this time next week there will either be a text post like “I GOT THE NEXT STEP FOR THE JOB I AM QUEEN OF THE WORLD” or like “welp time to go to plan b” which wouldn’t even be plan b yet, it would be like plan A part 2. this is like plan 1 of plan A the Ideal the Dream the Peak and i REALLY WANT THIS JOB but I AM SO HIGH ON ADRENALINE I CAN HEAR COLORS
also i hate talking on the phone so that just ratcheted up my fear 400%
time to practice mad amounts of self-care
what i do is not up to you 