“Please stay.”
The words cut through Alec in the same moment his hand touches the doorknob. He freezes like he’s just been shot with ice – ice through the heart, ice sticking his fingers to the handle, ice freezing his feet to the ground.
It takes him a long moment to even be able to turn his head, but he finally does, and his eyes meet Magnus’s. Not just Magnus’s eyes. His real eyes. He’s sat on the couch, martini glass dangling loosely between his fingers, bare feet on the floorboards making him look vulnerable. His whole face looks open. Scared.
Alec swallows and it feels like the motion goes all the way down through his body.
It’s been a long, long fight. The kind of fight where they’re not even using words they actually mean, by the end of it, just hurling their worst sides at each other, because it all comes down to insecurities, and past hurts, and things which aren’t even really about each other, and Alec had thought it best to just –
Get out of there. Clear his head. Before either one of them said something they couldn’t come back from. They hardly ever fight over anything bigger than whose turn it is to answer the door when their irritating neighbour comes around to complain about something, or who gets to be the little spoon that night, but when they do, Alec is used to this method of dealing with it. Walking out until they can cool down.
He’d always thought that was the right move. But he’s never looked back at Magnus’s face as he does it, before.
Looking back now, all Alec sees is that Magnus looks afraid.
Like maybe he thinks if Alec walks out the door right now, he’s not going to come back.
All of a sudden, the fight melts away, and Alec’s heart just stutters. How did it even start? His fears about immortality, again? All that boils down to is never wanting to leave Magnus, not being able to stomach the thought of it, and of course that’s different to taking a walk around the block or crashing on Maia’s couch for a night to cool down, but the fact remains. He doesn’t want to go. Not when it’ll hurt Magnus.
“I wasn’t – I wasn’t going for good,” Alec promises, but he lets his hand slide off the doorknob anyway. The anger’s fizzled right out of him. Looking into Magnus’s wide, heartbroken cat-eyes, looking at the vulnerable ways he curls his bare toes into the floor and keeps his posture so, so straight that he seems like he might snap – Alec wants nothing more than to go to him.
So he does. He takes three long strides across the room until he can drop down before Magnus, his knees colliding painfully with the wooden floors. He extracts the empty glass from Magnus’s hands and clutches them in his own, instead. “I never want to leave for good,” Alec promises, his voice rough and quiet and dangling between them. “That’s the whole point. You get that’s the whole point, right? I just only ever want to be with you, Magnus.”
Magnus’s throat bobs, like he’s swallowing every word Alec says – drinking them in. Alec stares into his eyes, and stares and stares, all his heart going out to Magnus. His knees ache and Magnus’s hands are trembling in his, and Alec feels a bit like he might cry.
“I just didn’t want you to go,” Magnus tells him in a breath, after several long minutes of looking.
Alec gets it. “Okay,” he says, and kisses Magnus’s knuckles, one by one. “I’m not going anywhere.”
Tag: FUCK ME
I really enjoy the irony that in the avatar universe typically:
firebenders/people from the fire nation seem cold and keep their emotions hidden
waterbenders/people from the water tribes are hotheaded and passionate
earthbenders/people from the earth kingdom are lighthearted jokesters
airbenders/people from the air temples are grounded and level headed
OMG HOW DID I NOT NOTICE THAT
Welcome home Kaz and Wylan!
So @maroonwombat and I got kittens this past weekend and honestly they are the cutest things in the world.They are named after @lbardugo ‘s Six of Crows characters. Kaz is the black one and Wylan in the orange one.
Hobbies include: Wrestling, climbing up legs, eating, napping on shoulders and trying to escape their enclosure to collect 30 million kruge.
Millionth thought about “Burn” I’ve had this month: Eliza goes for Hamilton’s jugular – but not by repeating the insults we’ve heard before, (arrogant, loud mouthed, obnoxious, son of a whore, bastard, etc…) She rips Hamilton up on the thing he’s most known for, what he’s most proud of – his WRITING. His SENSELESS sentences, his SELF OBSESSED and PARANOID tone. She’s tearing him up about not just the CONTENT of the Reynolds Pamphlet, but the way in which he wrote it. She takes the time in the middle of her rage to mock his style, which is such a rap battle move.
And what is she going to do with all of the beautiful writing he gave her over the years, his letters?
Burn them.
I think about this LITERALLY of the time. About how she pushes the button she knows will kill him.
“not only did you totally drag our names through the mud, and ruin our reputation, it wasn’t. even. your. best. work.”
^^^^^^^^^ killed ‘em ^^^^^^^^^
Okay but that isn’t even the most hardcore part:
The entire play is a fourth wall-breaking battle for narrative control of personal and professional legacy. That’s what it’s about. Conventional wisdom — and basic logic — states that history is written by the winners. Hamilton: An American Musical shows us the battle for that proverbial quill.
Literally the first song tells us “His enemies destroyed his rep/America forgot him” because up until the release of this play, Alexander Hamilton’s legacy was mostly overlooked by the average American, largely thanks to folks like Jefferson and Madison underselling his contributions after he died.
(This is also why Jefferson isn’t shy and awkward in the play. While that would have been historically accurate, the point is that the modern perception of Jefferson is that he’s a Big Fucking Deal. Because he made himself look that way.)
So the characters on stage are constantly fighting to make their version of events the version of events.
Burr is the narrator because this is his opportunity to tell his side of things. “History obliterates in every picture it paints, it paints me in all my mistakes.” He’s saying that in the end he LOST the fight for narrative control. And yet — and here’s the fucking amazing part — the mere act of explaining this to the audience CHANGES OUR PERCEPTION OF BURR and alters his place in history. God Lin is too smart for his own goddamn good.
(“History has its eyes on you,” Washington says, putting a very fine point on things. And if you don’t think he also means there’s an audience sitting watching this play, you’re not paying attention.)
So, let’s talk about Alexander, his obsession with legacy, and his tried and true method for controlling the narrative:
Writing.
In “Hurricane” he says “I’ll write my way out! Write everything down far as I can see! … Overwhelm them with honesty! This is the eye of the hurricane, this is the only way I can protect my legacy!”
“It doesn’t work” you might say, going by the contents of “The Reynolds Pamphlet.” Except… it kinda does. “At least he was honest with our money!” the company sings. Which was really Alexander’s main concern, after all. Think of his priorities in “We Know” where his first instinct is to gloat because “You have nothing!” It’s not until a beat later that he even considers Eliza.
He published the Reynolds Pamphlet because he didn’t want people to think he was disloyal to the United States. His concern was with his professional legacy. And in that sense… he succeeded.
(He succeeded in another way, too. Listen to “Say No To This.” (God I could write a 40 page paper on that song alone.) This is where we actually hear the contents of the Reynolds Pamphlets. And how does the song begin? With Burr explicitly handing narrative control to Alexander Hamilton. “And Alexander’s by himself. I’ll let him tell it.”
Every line of dialogue from Maria is prefaced with Hamilton saying “she said.” That’s because HAMILTON IS WRITING HER DIALOGUE. Hamilton is creating this character of a sultry seductress in red, coming to him when he was weak and luring him to adultery. Maria Reynolds in the play not a character, she’s a fantasy, created to excuse Hamilton’s transgressions.
It’s worth noting at this juncture that Maria Reynolds, the real woman, wrote her own pamphlet. No one would publish it. She was silenced. And Hamilton’s depiction of her as a morally corrupt temptress became the dominant narrative.
So suck on that literally any time you want to fucking blame Maria for Hamilton’s affair: good job, you’ve bought into a serial adulterer’s lies about a battered woman. Also don’t do that, I swear to god I will come for you.)
SO. What does any of this have to do with Burn?
In the very end, it’s revealed that it wasn’t Jefferson or Burr or Hamilton in control of the Almighty Narrative.
It was Eliza.
The very last second of the play is Alexander Hamilton turning Eliza to face the audience. She sees the people watching, and she gasps. Because she did this. She’s the reason this play exists. She’s the reason Lin Manuel Miranda is telling us a damn thing about Alexander Hamilton, she’s the reason Hamilton got a massively popular zeitgeist musical.
Now. Throughout the course of the play Eliza sees all these people weaving their important stories and she thinks she’s somehow… outside. She’s not a statesman, she’s not brilliant like Angelica, she’s just a wife and a mother and she has no place among these giants. At one point she LITERALLY ASKS HER HUSBAND TO BE INCLUDED I’M GONNA SCREAM.
And yet she never had to ask. She was in control the whole time.
And how, how did she do it? How did she “keep” Alexander’s “flame?” By collecting and preserving everything he WROTE, of course. Making sense of it all. She spent fifty years on the project. Everything she collected BECAME THE NARRATIVE.
But you know what wasn’t in there?
That’s right: those letters she burned.
So she didn’t just insult him, oh noooo. Eliza WHOLESALE OBLITERATED A PIECE OF ALEXANDER HAMILTON FROM THE NARRATIVE.
And not just any piece. “You built me palaces out of paragraphs, you built cathedrals,” she sings. In “Hurricane” Hamilton lists his letters to Eliza among his greatest accomplishments, (conflating his writing them with actually BEING HER HUSBAND, god what a self-centered prick). “I wrote Eliza love letters until she fell.”
Eliza says: “I’m burning the memories, burning the letters that might have redeemed you.”
The best pieces of Alexander Hamilton: gone.
God I’m gonna go curl up in a ball and freak out about this some more. FUCK.
if you’re nothing without the suit, then you shouldn’t have it.
spider-man: homecoming (2017) dir. Jon Watts
shadowhunters appreciation weeks » favorite episode
#that’s it that’s the entire episode
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because i didnt want to make a long post ^^;this is actually sort of a ficlet i’ve had sitting for so long now, i decided to just bahhh put it out there.
i’m gonna put the script under the cut for those who use screen reader-things, and pretty much just to make it easier for some :3
age of ultron post-credits scene or bust
There is probably a parallel universe where there is a very successful, and good done, movie franchise of the Percy Jackson books. I want to live in that universe.
But think how the movies would end. TLH would end with Jason’s words “Percy has no memory” and then there is a scene of Percy waking up on the middle of nowhere, he is looking around, he doesn’t say a word, you can see a sign that says “Welcome to California”. Credits
SoN would end up a little happier but still it would stress the hell out of you. You have Percy (looking ridiculous on a Toga) walking with Hazel and Frank. He looks at the sky, where you can see the Argo II for the first time, the scene changes to the members of the Argo II, but they don’t focus on anyone…and then there is a shot where you can see the romans from the Argo II, in that same scene you can see Annabeth’s back. Credits (bonus point if you can hear her saying “Seaweed brain.” And then you scream in frustration because there is no reunion.)
Mark of Athena has the worst ending of them all. You have Percy and Annabeth falling to Tartarus and the screen fades to black. Credits. After the main credits you have an extra scene. It’s the Argo II crew in shock and promising to get them back.
House of Hades is the only one who doesn’t end up with a cliffhanger. It ends with the seven on the Argo II, looking ad impressive as they can, sailing for Greece. It’s a powerful shot, it’s the first time the seven are alone on the ship. There is a scene after the credits, it’s Octavian ploting against the greeks.
Blood of Olympus, this movie is one with the biggest changes from the book, Nico and Reyna are not main character and there are a lot of more scenes of the seven, you can see them bonding, you can see them becoming a family, you can see how scared they are of going to fight Gaea, Percy and Annabeth’s PTSD is addressed. There are a lot of scenes of both camps getting ready for war, there are amazing shots of the battle, you cry for the fallen campers. Piper is not with Percy and Annabeth during the “I love you” scene. You can see the greeks reaction of having Percy back, you can feel the grief of the seven after Leo dies, you can see more of the aftermatch of the war, not everything is okay between the greeks and romans but they are on a truce, you get the Sally/Percy reunion. The movie ends with Jason and Piper on the roof of cabin 1 (just like this saga starts with Jason.) There is a scene after the main credits, it’s Leo, he is Ogyia. There is another scene at the end of the credits, You are in Olympus, Apollo is getting punished by Zeus, bright light, The End.
Bricks, by T. Spiller, 2016
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