Tag: both????

I assume you don’t mind if people talk Malec to you? I can’t stop thinking about Magnus, he’s had to hold back for so long and when Malec finally get to that place where they’re together and a little more comfortable he’s gonna be so into touching Alec just because he can. I’m imagining little looks here, little lingering touches there. He’s gonna be happy about being able to kiss Alec and don’t even get me started on when they make it to the bedroom.

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I am so sorry, for some reason I seemed to have missed this????? Which is upsetting because I have things to say about Magnus, nonnie. I have so many things.

Because, Magnus is just a little vulnerable cupcake, okay? He puts up all these barriers and walls and underneath he just wants to be loved and cuddled. I mean, something I can’t stop thinking about with Magnus is how he loses everyone he loves and how much courage it must take for him to let himself give into the way he feels for Alec, knowing that – once again – he might lose him. (I say might because I refuse to believe something can’t be worked out.) 

But, here is the thing. Here it is. That when Alec and Magnus are finally together, how clingy Magnus is. I need you to think about this with me. Magnus, who teases Alec, who is the experienced one, who has loved and lost and had lots and lots of sex, but at the end of the day, he is the vulnerable one. I need you to think abut Magnus who isn’t sure whether or not Alec will get fed up if he tries to hold his hand all the time or snuggle him all night. Magnus, who is unsure if Alec will be okay with clingy cuddling after sex or how much Magnus loves being in Alec’s space. He knows people need their space, everyone does, but Magnus…he has just never felt this way, this much before. 

And of course he needs his alone time too. Some days he needs to be on his own, just the same as Alec sometimes needs to spend the day training and away from the rest of the world. But it scares Magnus how much he truly loves Alec, knowing this could all blow up in his face. That maybe in a couple of years, when Alec is older, he will grow bored, see Magnus as his first love and move on. But Magnus can’t not risk it, because Alec is the most important thing to him in the world, or is at least very much becoming the most important, and it’s scary and makes him even more vulnerable but…but it’s all worth it just for the moments where Alec holds him, squeezes his hand when Magnus takes it, how he seeks Magnus out to cuddle after sex, how he looks at Magnus from across a room like Magnus is somehow everything and kisses his forehead because he’s taller and he knows how much Magnus secretly loves forehead kisses.

Vulnerable Magnus getting all the love and care he deserves is so very important to me, nonnie. So very important.