okay so i’ve procrastinating watching the Hamilton performance at the Tonys because my love of this show has transmuted into something that is so strong it hurts a little? like participating in the hamilton fandom outside of just listening to the soundtrack hurts me a little because i love it so much

also i haven’t been able to even have feelings about orlando yet and i still can’t have feelings about it so

but watching their performance of fucking YORKTOWN without their muskets like fucked me up on a deep and visceral level for reasons i can’t understand yet and i’m sitting here on my couch probably 80% crying because Hamilton and Orlando and a lot of things

they did yorktown without guns in their hands

i thought they were just gonna remove the gunshot noises but

no guns in their hands

im Having Feelings